Have you ever felt as if you’ve reached a point when your brain is completely full of information and you could swear you heard the seal snap, the zipper zip or the flap close on that area that allows new information to freely filter in?  I believe some have referred to this overwhelming phenomenon as an information overload while others slip beyond the point of reason and create multiple personalities which in turn creates more brains and more available space, right?  Okay, maybe not.

I am not 20 years old anymore but over the course of the past month I have forced my brain out of the “youthful thinking” retirement it had slipped into over the course of the past 30 years and I’m not sure that it’s okay with what I am asking it to do.  It had reached a point where it was willing to learn a few new tricks over the course of each year but it was definitely not prepared for the avalanche of new material it has been flooded with in the last month and it isn’t performing quite as well as I had hoped it would.  It seems that some of the new information is being dispersed in tiny, unnoticeable amounts while other factors  are being washed down the drain at an amazing rate.  During training sessions it displays this totally blank look on my face when it’s ask to retrieve some of the pertinent information it has supposedly learned and then it removes my ability to speak when I actually know correct answers.

I’m pretty sure my brain will get over the shock of being filled to capacity and in a few months it might even let me in on the places it’s holding the information that passed through the strainer so in the meantime I’ve decided I need to keep my head held high.  I need to keep telling myself I am completely capable of creating a routine for myself and those working with me and before long I will look back and realize everything I thought my brain drained was actually held in place by a big old clog in the pipe called determination.